Tuesday, June 19, 2012

OH HEYYYY...

Okay, soooooo, I feel way blessed.

Although a lot has fallin apart in my life, a lot has fallin into place in my life. New friends and others. I definitely thought this new step in life would be unbearable, but it is indeed bearable. I have give most the credit the the people who have walked into my life. Everything happens for a reason, and I believe this is very good reasoning. I'm bad ass, I'm beautiful, I'm a great person, I'm confident and I'm successful. I guess throwing all that positive energy out into the universe really payed off! It came right back my way and sent me people with all my same qualities like you read above. Everyday gets easier and easier and makes sense, but I know I still have A LOT to learn. Because of all of this, I know what I want out of life. I am going to be me, and never hide who I am, bad or good. God knows I have a met a few friends who already that love it all and I'm so thankful. I am going to concentrate on being the best I can be and doing everything I have been wanting to, Job, career, travel, experience life to the fullest, make mistakes and learn, etc. So far, I am doing a pretty good job. To wrap this all up, I'm doing okay, I'm happier than I have been the past month, going stronger than ever, more determined than ever. :))
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Monday, June 18, 2012

Still Standing..

Well A LOT has happened within the past month.
I lost everything that meant the most to me. The man I thought/knew I would marry is gone.
My car, my place, my puppy Hanna, everything is gone. Sorry this post isn't the happiest. There
isn't anything happy to write about. I am just blessed to be alive and standing even though most
days I feel dead. I haven't come to realization of it all yet and I'm sure I won't ever. It's so hard to be happy when the few things that made you the most happy are gone. And when you are happy, the happy now doesn't compare to how happy you were then. I guess the only thing I can do is pretend I am alright, believe it and eventually everything will be alright. It has worked in the past and hopefully will this time..
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