Still Standing..

Well A LOT has happened within the past month.
I lost everything that meant the most to me. The man I thought/knew I would marry is gone.
My car, my place, my puppy Hanna, everything is gone. Sorry this post isn't the happiest. There
isn't anything happy to write about. I am just blessed to be alive and standing even though most
days I feel dead. I haven't come to realization of it all yet and I'm sure I won't ever. It's so hard to be happy when the few things that made you the most happy are gone. And when you are happy, the happy now doesn't compare to how happy you were then. I guess the only thing I can do is pretend I am alright, believe it and eventually everything will be alright. It has worked in the past and hopefully will this time..