Its a Girl!!

Coming out of the Human Society weighing 115 pounds and 7 ounces. Meet my little baby girl Hanna!

Well... We actually got her about two months ago and I kept forgetting to take pictures! She is a year and 3 months old and we love her oh so much. She truly is my little girl. Follows me everywhere, goes with me everywhere. Little did you know, this has been my dream dog since I was 7. I drew pictures of Rottweilers all growing up and my dream has finally come true! And I really could not have found a better girl, she is such a gentle giant. Best Christmas present I have ever received in my life. Thank you Cody Bear. 

Moment of Truth.

This week has been hands down the most eye opening week for me in a long time. For the past week or so I have been getting so much crap for who I am, things I do and what makes me ME. At first I got down on myself and for a split second I was trying to figure out a way to make myself be what everybody else wants to see. THAT MAKES ME SICK FOR EVEN THINKING FOR A SPLIT SECOND ABOUT CHANGING WHO I AM.

 

I am Natalie Cook, I love food and am usually 10 to 15 pounds over weight. I am loud and love to lie to strangers about who I am and what I do for a living. If I know I am never going to see them again, who cares right? Lol. (Don't even like you never have! Its so fun!). Besides that I am a pretty honest person. I can be insecure sometimes, but most the time I have high self esteem. I find myself extremely beautiful and love secretly dancing and singing in the mirror like I am in music videos. I joke like a man, play sports like a man, and sometimes I even wish I was one. Baha, BUT i love makeup, clothes and shoes WAAAAY to much. I stand up for myself at all costs and others I love. I am very opinionated and headstrong. I am obsessed with guns and collect knives. I have Bipolar, alchohol induced psychosis, and manic depression. I am not ashamed of anything that I have cause it makes me who I am. 

With all this being said, I hope some people realize next time they want to try and tear me down remember,

I know I'm overweight- And I don't care, I love food, and when I look in the mirror I think 

I'm drop dead sexy!

And I know I'm crazy- But that's what makes me different from other people. I am an extraordinary person. It's better to be extremely weird than extremely boring. And I am living life as happily as I can! And I refuse to live it how other people think I should.

Christmas Party Poisening.

Haha, I just had to start this post out with a 'laugh'. So this last Sunday Cody and I attended our Reiser/Shurtliff/Beckman family Christmas party along with our Cook family party back to back. Food was wonderful at both parties!! Sweets, Ham, funeral potatoes at both (my personal fav). Great night right?! Got home, cuddled up to my Hanna and let all that food digest and settle in my stomach. Less than 10 minutes later I was locked away in the bathroom hating life, meanwhile Cody is screaming for me every five minutes to come out in the living room and watch TV with him. HELLO FOOD POISONING! Have NO IDEA what I ate or what house it was at, but to say the least I have been deathly ill these past 3, going on 4 days. FML. I better never get food poisoning again, but its a chance I am willing to take. I cant just pass up all the good food. 

So other than puking my brains out, I AM HAVING SUCH AN AMAZING WEEK! AND Christmas is in T-minus 5 days! :D 

Growing up. UGH!

This week has been so freaking stressful. Sometimes I don't quite know how to handle it....

Bills, rent, dog food, cat food, other bills, more bills, and more bills. This all comes to the point that I miss working full time and going home and not having to pay 1 bill (when I say home, clearly I mean the parental units home). THEN and only then I got to spend my 700 dollar paychecks all on clothes, shoes and fun activities. Now I got bills. Both Cody and my car decided to not want to start right before Christmas -$400. Now I am spending about six hundred on Christmas for everything and everyone.

 Don't get me wrong, I love being on my own and having responsibility and being stressed out 90% of my week but HEY, its all for a good purpose right? Being responsible definitely has its ups and downs. And right now I am just trying to figure out which one is weighing me down the most.

GOOD OLE' PROS AND CONS

Pros-

I get to do whatever I want

I can get home whenever I want(not like that mattered at home)

I get to live with my best friend and furry babies :)

I work harder than ever and have determination

I can walk around naked in my own house lol.

I accomplish a lot more when I am on my own.

Cons-

-I have turned completely socially retarded (unless I warm up to you) due to the fact that all I do is work and have only a few friends.

-I am awkward around people now (weird I know, never saw it coming!)

 -I cant go shopping and blow 400$ a paycheck in clothes.

-I can only afford to buy a new pair of boots everyone in a while

-I can't go out anymore every weekend and attend fun activities because I don't have the sufficient funds. 

Welp, looks like the pro's won by 2. 

Dear Santa, if you could PLEASE, please, please, pretty please give my boss Dan the sudden urge to give me raise.... I will leave you extra cookies and booze out on Christmas eve.

I take back the booze part, drunk driving Santa= Dead Santa. Every child's nightmare. So Scratch that.

However, if you do not fulfill my request? Expect to have your sleigh shot down out of the sky next year. Not a threat, just a friendly reminder! Thanks Santa.  :)

Wednesday confession.

Confession- I haven't blogged in quite a while I realize.

Confession- but I also came to realization that I had nothing to blog because everything I had to say was negative.

Just today as I was following a few blogs I usually do, I came across a blog of a girl that I went to high school with. As I read her blogs I realized how uplifting, fun and interesting they all were! Every blog pin pointed such a good day she will always remember, and thoughts she never wants to forget, which then made me realize.... "Why am I writing about stuff I regret and stuff that brought me down? I could be pin pointing the things I love, and the things that uplift me."! I want my children to look back and take a look at my AMAZING journey through life, not my hardships.

So from now on I promise to myself I will only blog positive pin points in my life. It takes so much time and energy to focus on the bad, when I could be blogging 10x a day about the good! 

Well here is just a sneak peak of whats good in my life:

I am in love with a perfect strapping young lad name Cody Haight. We like to watch Disney movies with each other, Act immature, and plan on door bell ditching our neighbors some time in the near future. (<--Cody doesn't  know about that one yet though.).... I like to find every opportunity to scare him, so I lurk around every corner. Surprisingly enough I have only scared him once(more to come, I need more practice.).... He on the other hand is really good at scaring me. Have you ever been scared so badly your heart jumps a beat, you fall to the ground and let out a really ugly shriek? We will end there. Basically to wrap this all up, I have such an amazing life. I have such a wonderful Codybear.  That boy has seen me eat crap, trip, slip on ice , slip horribly into a flour bed of mud unable to get up out (it was our third day dating), stumble my words, get eatin' and beat up by 13 foot waves, trip up the stairs multiple times and still for some reason is not turned off by the fact I am clumsy and mother nature hates my stinkin guts. He loves me more and more every time I do something dumb along those lines. I'm so lucky to have such a sweet, cuddly, cute, strapping young man who loves my flaws more anything! :) I guess you can say I kinda like him.