One year down!

One 'happy' year down and many more to come!

2011 was the first year of my life (honestly speaking) I have ever fully been happy. Before last year it WAS impossible to be happy. 

Every New Years Eve for the past 5 years I was either in Jail, on drugs, in rehab, or homeless. And every single year I would wake up on New Years day and regret everything I have ever done and accept the fact that I have no job, I'm an addict, I have no car, no life and at that point and time no family. (They love me, but I screwed them over. It was a trust issue.) I CANNOT believe I chose to live that way! It took me six years to pull my head out of my ass, but six years I wouldn't trade for the world.

This New years I looked back on my year and this is how it went:

I finally got out of a marriage that was toxic (Best choice ever!) I went to a lot of therapy and found a love in myself and found a meaning of life. I lived my life to master it, not survive it. I decided to choose sobriety over drugs (minus a glass of wine every once and a while!) I met the love of my life and he taught me, its okay to be myself. It's better to be extremely weird than extremely boring. Him and I bring out our goofy side (our favorite side) more and more everyday. I work full time and got promoted to a very important job when I thought I could never be that important anywhere! I now make more money than most girls my age. Before I made nothing, due to the fact I couldn't hold a job long enough. I mended relationships and had a harsh reality check when I realized how much I have missed my family (my best friends)! Instead of stealing money from my parents, I gave my parents a Christmas later finding out they had NO money. I got a car and my own place (which is beautiful, with amazing furniture I earned!). I received the dog I have been wanting since I was a child from Cody, a Rottweiler. And last but not least, I learned from my divorce and everything I went through in the past 5 years... I will never give up. Whether its my relationship with Cody, my job, my career or just an everyday life situation, I WILL NEVER GIVE UP.  I am a stronger, smarter and more intelligent person than I thought I was. Sometimes it just takes a person more challenges and time to realize it though. 

This is the first year of my entire teenage/adult life I am 100% happy. I have felt peace and not been afraid to be myself. 2011 I found myself and the things that really matter and will always remember that. But now I'm over it and CANNOT wait to see what 2012 brings me and my goals!!

 Hanna Greeting daddy at the door!

 My pretty bathroom!

 My beautiful Living room along with my two kitties! :)

 Living room/hallway/kitchen/Bar

 Cody and our Christmas morning! <3

My princess and dream dog, Hanna xoxo :)